Insanity

I am constantly amazed at the insanity of our disease. The program of Alcoholics Anonymous states that insanity is 'doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results' which is what we do when we are drinking and using. There appears to be another level of insanity which manifests when we are not drinking and using yet are in the depths of a 'dry drunk' (DD). When we are in a DD we might as well  be using because we still are lying, cheating and stealing from ourselves. We are also still into our selfish, self seeking dishonest behavior. I have watched a friend end up in the hospital one more time, get out of the hospital and now one more time is more focused on a love object outside of himself than on his recovery. We have watched him do this over and over again with the same result he starts drinking, gets kicked out of a sober living and ends up back in the hospital.

I am saddened by this and grateful for the gift. He teaches where we all can be in a heart beat. The insanity is we may know all of this and will still think "it won't happen to me'. The level of insanity and the power of our disease is stunning.

Make it possible today and get out of yourself. Reach out your hand to a new comer or and old timer. Re-member we all have today. There are no guarantees we will have tomorrow especially if we pickup one more time.