Left Right Left

Through the grace of my Higher Power (HP) I am still clean and sober today. What I have done to achieve the goal of a day at a time without using is follow the advice of the people who came before me and my three sponsors. Over time I have watched as my disease grows stronger. What gets me through, when my disease shows up, is using the tools, given to me, on a daily basis. Translation is I do the foot work, left right left. I was taught that I get to put the gas in my care and drive it. My HP will show me where to go, not drive the car. I start my day with the first three steps and through out the day do steps 10, 11 and 12. From the beginning I was shown to call other addicts and alcoholics in the program. I was taught to call my sponsor if 'I' have a 'good' idea and if 'I' have a 'great' idea I need to call three other addicts/alcoholics. Usually when I call my sponsor and three other addicts/alcoholics WE decide my 'great' idea is nuts.

I have seen too many people who say they want to get clean and sober. The problem is they are doing it for all of the wrong reasons, their spouse/significant other, their children, their parents, their boss any one else but their self. Unless you are doing it for you don't do it. You get to want to get clean and sober for you. You are entitled to have a life and change how you are living. Today I have far less 'stuff' and no longer think I am important. What I do have is far more precious, I have me today and my connection with my HP which is priceless and brings me more happiness than when I was drinking and using. What I get today is no longer feeling ashamed of who I had become. As long as I do the foot work, left right left, then I never have to feel ashamed, just today.