Another one

I got a call last night, the kind of call that after being in recovery for sometime and working in the treatment industry you come to expect, which is sad. A young man, college student, brilliant and caring is no longer with us. He went through treatment, reading  his physics books and did everything we asked him to do except to stay a little longer. From the outside he looked like a conservative walking down the street, a normal looking straight arrow kind of kid. His insides were torn up from the life he had been through. Apparently he tried it one more time. Sadly his parents found him dead in the bathroom the next morning.

This is what we do to ourselves. Our ego tells us we can't take the pain, that life isn't worth living clean and sober so we go for it one more time. Over the years that I have been clean and sober my ego has taught me many lessons. The number one lesson is that my ego is lying to me. When my ego shows up I call my sponsor or someone else in the program. I work my steps and I go to a meeting. At the meeting I announce to the group that my ego/disease has shown up one more time. My ego/disease does not like my sponsor, the steps or a meeting.

I pray everyday that we do not have to lose another person to this disease. My cell phone number is 949.510.3845. Call me 24/7 before you pickup. I would rather be awaken at 4AM because you don't want to get loaded than at 4AM to find out you aren't with us any more.