I am no longer amazed at the insanity of our disease and I am continuously amazed at the insanity of our disease. During the past two days I have watched the dance of an addict who says they want to get clean. Right! We made the phone calls and had multiple options available for the individual to detox. They decided to do it at home because they still had some medications they could take to ease their anxiety. However, of course, they ran out of their medication. All of a sudden they were ready to go to detox. At least that is what they said they wanted to do while they dragged on their drama about where to go for detox for a couple of hours. Finally the individual went to the hospital Emergency Room and wait the normal 6 hours to be seen. They are finally seen and given an IV of Ativan. The person finds out that they can not begin Suboxone detox until Tuesday. So they do the next indicated step which is call their dealer in Los Angeles (LA), pull out the IV and start walking to LA. Hey they can party for 3 more days.
The good news is that the mother told the person she was finished and would not support the insanity. How many times have we seen this drama play its self out for us, to numerous to count. As addicts we want it now and waiting is not an option. What that tells me is the person wasn't willing to go to 'any lengths' to get clean.
My prayer is that this individual makes it back alive. We tell ourselves we can go party for 3 more days. That is the lie of the ego and our disease. What we fail to factor in is that we may not make it 3 more days if we keep using. Insanity again.
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