When I was using I didn't get to do anything except get loaded. At no point did I ever question my sanity. I thought everyone was using 24/7 and I saw nothing wrong with being in the bathroom at 3AM trying to weld together three broken glass pipes in order to make one pipe that worked. The stories of our insanity go on and on. However if you can stand back and stop using for a simple 24 hours you might one day laugh at how crazed you were. You might begin to recognize that you 'came to' and that as long as you don't drink or use today you have been restored to 'sanity'.

Today I get to talk with the mom who raised me. I get to go food shopping and spend time with my wife. I don't have to do anything. I can chose to get loaded and go back to not getting to do anything.

Each moment is precious. Be grateful for all the moments that you get to have.