Kelsey

We lost Kelsey to the disease last night. A hot shot. Now her 9 month old son will grow up with out his mother. She was doing great, clean and sober 18 months, going to school and meetings. 

She came to California for a week, returned to Michigan and moved out of her parent's house in with her old boy friend. Like many before her, her life was going great. So she made a choice to go for it one more time.

Many many times, toooooooooo many I have shared with people that the next time might be your last. Not many hear that and they go ahead and try it, one more time, one last time.

Pray for Kelsey, pray for her son Dane.

Addiction: Today

Addiction: Today

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Today

I am really clear since Rob died that no matter what getting loaded is not the answer. My frustration level is high when I have not surrendered. I have been looking to find extra work or another job and so far no thing is happening.......then I re-member that I have a job. I work for God.

Death Jails and Institutions

We lost a client on Sunday to an over dose. His life was going great so he just had to go for it one more time. Sunday I was sad and numb and unable to cry. Monday brought his parents, his mother, father, grandmother, brother and step-mother. It was brutal. The brother was affected the most he was way far away and I do not blame him.

I have shared with people over and over again that you never know if you go back out if you are going to make it back to recovery. Some how people forget that. I have had an Oh God moment where I thought I had overdosed. When I realized at the time that I had not i did another bowl full of meth. That is what we do and how we think. We have a disease of addiction.